The Reluctant Servant

Psalm 19:8

The precepts of the Lord are right, giving joy to the heart.

Lord, when I was a child, I hated being told what to do. If asked to perform a chore, I resisted, found distractions, or muddled my way through it period. Guidelines felt like punishment. I knew I was capable of doing the things that were asked of me–I just wanted to do them in my own way. I gave of myself in my own time frame.

How often do I resist Your precepts, Lord? I see the right way to give or serve, yet I fight it. I don’t want to change my plans or be inconvenienced. I have had a reluctant heart, Lord, and I am sorry. Help me to follow Your commands with a giving spirit. I have asked many times before, but I still long to have a joyful heart that follows your way.